let go

On a clear day
I can breath
On a good day
I can see

Past faces that stand before me
Past places I stood in infantry

I’m going to wait right here
Until you see me
I’m going to freeze time
Until you tell me to leave

Holding tight
without applying pressure
In spite of secrets kept here
Despite falsehoods told in fear
My mind’s eye knows better
Though my wounded plight
Is weathered

It’s from the cold
I should go inside
It’s from the cold
I should close my eyes

I can stand here just a little while longer
I’ll pretend I’m invincible
They’re not snowflakes
They’re angels

I can hold on in hopes it’ll make me stronger
I’ll pretend I’m invincible
But my body’s stinging from frostbite
It’s so cold it strangles

On a clear day
I can breath
On a good day
I can see

If only the fog wasn’t creeping in
surrounding and threatening
Enveloping me whole
Depriving and deafening

I’m suffocating

It’s from the cold
Why can’t I go inside?
It’s from the cold
Why can’t I close my eyes?

It’s swallowing me whole
Just give me a sign

So I can breath again

Give me a sign
That I’ll survive this darkness

On a clear day
I can breath
On a good day
You’d help me see
I’d fall back
And you’d be there to catch me

On a clear day
But only in my dreams

…It seems