Shakuhachi – Patch Denim Shirt
I need this in my life so bad it hurts.
My eyes are fucking killing me…
And still I’m staring at this bright ass screen.
3:46 am and I was supposed to be asleep hours ago. But edits don’t give a shit about my bedtime…or lack there of. And I had a shoot proposal I needed to complete before going to sleep. So…work work work.
I can’t sleep.
Arrggh my left eye is threatening to pop out of it’s socket. No joke, I can hear it cursing at me in it’s own foreign language. Kind of sounds like mice crossed with a cat’s meow. A sad cat though. Yeah, kind of like that.
I’m out of it.
I was on my tumblr earlier and found this awesome image of Ruby Bridges being escorted by a U.S. Marshall. For those of you that might not know in November 1960, six-year-old, Ruby, became the first African American child to desegregate an elementary school. Can you imagine being so brave at 6?! I get nervous over such silly things when this little girl had the world on her shoulders.
It made me emotional and I cried for a little while about it. Happy to be where I am today because of little girls like Ruby.
When I was 6 I was in Rome and had no idea the world I was from thought of me as “different” or less than in some cases. I believe I was sheltered in a lot of ways. But I learned…in time upon moving back to the states about these American lines of separation and the public perception of my permanent tan. Not only as a person of color but also as a woman I had to be extra aware. And now as a queer woman of color it’s even more important I speak my mind and stand up for what I believe in…
Even if it’s as minuscule as not being afraid to blog about my sexuality…at odd hours of the night…
Or marching towards the castro…besides my sisters every June…or whenever the hell I need to because the world is STILL not listening.
However I choose, I can. And I will. Because it’s necessary. I will probably never be as brave as that little girl…and I’ll probably whine more about my love life than politics and race on this blog. But just because I don’t scream it here doesn’t mean I’m not a part of something bigger.
For some of us bigger is in the little things. The small voices that make big impacts on our lives.
But alas…I’m getting sleepy again and the words are starting to blur…
I’m hearing the sad cat mutated eye meow.
I better go before I go blind.
I couldn’t sleep…
And you’re currently knocked out…
So I decided since all I really want right now is to be melting and childishly engrossed in anything and everything…you…you…you…
I’ll just frigg’n blog about it. That was the second thing I figured I could do with this strange half awake half asleep time. And I’m way too tired to get out of bed to continue working. So here I am…on my wordpress iPhone app rambling about you…to the world…heh…
It’s weird how when you come to know someone…you think to yourself…how did I ever NOT know this person…crazy right?
You’re the sweetest breath of fresh air I’ve inhaled in the longest time.
You’re the reason I can’t now go a day without smiling, or laughing…about anything and everything.
You’re more beautiful than you even know…more than you could ever imagine.
When you smile, I smile.
I’m always smiling.
Because of you.
Boundary & Co Look-Book/Campaign Fall 2011
See the rest on my site www.taschkaturnquist.com
Art Direction & Photography – Taschka Turnquist
Co Shoot Director – Chinh T. Sheow
Model – Heidi Kor
MUA/Hair – Marla Verdugo
Kiko Mizuhara (@ asia cross) Model & Actress
I absolutely adore Kiko and her innocent yet come hither look. She’s quite the little fashionista in Japan…and America will fall in love with her as well once they get to know her better. She’s Caucasian, Korean, and a 1/4 Japanese.
Currently the face of many established fashion brands as well as one of the stars in the indie hit Norwegian Wood. If you haven’t seen the film adaptation of Haruki Murakami’s novel please please do so whenever you can. The english version of the book came out years ago and it’s a brilliant novel. Kiko is fantastic in the role of Midori and you’ll adore her just as I do.