I can’t sleep, again.
I’m tired but arrggh I just can’t sleep. I need to continue blasting chirpy music in my ears or get back up and watch something to distract me…
From my head.
An awesome friend made me a playlist today and I was just listening to that while editing. Keyword, “was” yup, waasss. I then thought, I’m in an experimental mood, I’m going to listen to a few things I don’t, won’t, or can’t usually listen to for whatever reason. I’m weird, but you guys know this already.
I then start with the hardest for me to hear and halfway through it’s like my ears were bleeding. What provoked me to do this to myself? I might as well have shoved a knife through my own heart. That’s what listening to this particular song feels like.
When I was done testing my will and it ended…I quickly turned on the most upbeat song I could find on my phone. So here I am, typing this…while old Nsync Christmas music plays on my earphones.
Don’t ask questions. Just go with it.